MaLaYsIa Independence Dae!!080831

Hmm...
merdeka na hari ap...nulis d blog na hari ap...
haha...bloon...
tp ya gt d...
bis na bnyk gawean c...maklum larh...
Lebayy...
ptm2 na ntu kt rncn na mo ke Genting...sewa mobil...tuz naek d...book hotel just for one nite..
mo liat sun rise...its better to see it with him...but cant do anything, he's not here...
hehe..
tp, ga jd...gr2 tkt macet n Linda jg ga d bolehin ma bonyok na...LoL...
eh...jd2 na kt k BB d...
ga tau dsana bkl ad fire work ap ga...
tp kt ttp tancep...
nyewa vios...RM 300++ buat 3 hari..murah ap mahal ya???
bis ntu kt cabut sktr jam 6 an...
Huekz...kt k BB dulu mam...blom pd mam nih...
laper...
kt mam d resto korean...hehe...enakkk.....
tuz...sambil ngg jam 12...
kt jln2 d sktr pavilion, perempatan na BB...
wah!!ptm kale ngerayain merdeka na malay d luar SUBANG!!!!LoL...
lebayy...hehe...
parah!!!rame abis...seluruh jln bnr2 full ma org2...
n aneh na org ap pun ad gt...huff...pdhl merdeka na jg merdeka malay...haha...
hmm...pas lge jln2 kt ktm Mr.Silver...ntu yg ad d poto...
loco kan???
org bule aslii ntu....tau d mao aj jd penghibur dsini...
pdhl prg2 melayu na semua na kurang ajar..kek ga ad education...
masa c Mr.Silver na d teriak2 in ???
parah!!!malu2in bgt d....
bis ntu ad st sport car yg d block d tgh jln...tuz d semprot ma dy org pake mos putih yg ga jelas ntu...dy org semprot2 an donk...idih...awas aj kena gua...hehe...
kan lengket ntu..males bgtt....
hehe...
n org2 na pd ganjen semua lge..ya iy larh...alai2 melayu ga jelas c...
sktr berapa mnt menjelang jam 12...kt2 pd kelaperan n keausan...
so, kt du2k dulu d McD...anjrot...
ptm kale na dlm idup, gua liat McD kek pasar ikan...
haha...eh, salah ding..kek ngantri mnta sembako...haha....
antri na ud panjang, tuz penuh lge...huff...
haha...untung dpt t4 du2k...klo ga, cape d!!!ud muter2 nyari resto buat du2k, semua na full BokKKK!!!!!!parah bgt d....
n finally...sblum na dy org semua na count down brg2 donk...
teriak dr 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1.....then....firework na appeared...
weitz...bgs pisan...haha....
n u noe wad???
ntu kembang api tercinta cmn keluar pas2 an 5 menit...bis ntu ludess!!!!!
pas2an 5 menit lho!!ga kurang, ga lebih...haha...buset da...bisa aj d...
n pas ud liat ntu kembang api yg sgt berharga...cmn buat ngeliat ntu, kt bela2in ksana...
haha...kt

bingung mst gmn...

GETTING CONFUSE ALL DA DAE...
huff..
nothing to say...
speechless...
I do care of him...
but donno wad he's thinking...
wanna get rid of him...
but, lophe him still...
he's far away from me...
donno wad he's doin...
wanna hate him...
but...I really can't...
at the end...
suffer myself...
donno wad should I do to make it better...
please....
give me da answers for every thing...
hurt me deeper and deeper as time goes by...
never been hurt like this b4...
damn fucking u...
todae wanna have fun..
sure, I can...
and I hv to release myself from this sadness...
wondering when is it gonna be better...
and...
wondering when will he stop hurting me and suffering me...
u're such a BULL SHIT...!!!!

damn!!!my fault has ruined everything between me n him...

Hmm...
todae??
Im really sad...damn sad...
ini semua ad hubungan na ma doii...
ptm na msh bae2 aj...trus pas ud d kul gua semua na baru mulai...
ujan...damn....yg nama na ujan mang ga pernah bikin ati jd tenang...
selalu bkl sendu nanti na...huff...
n da main prob of our rlationship is...that BITCH....!!!!!
fucked her ass off...
tb2 telp mur...gua tau...jgn pikir gua ga tau dueh..pokoke gua tau...
buat gua marah bgtt n jd berantem ma mur...
dasar BITCH!!!!!
you are really a BITCH...
stop ruining every single thing that related to his life...
bis telp nan ma ntu CE...tb2 gua received message dr ntu CE...
nulis ap cb??nulis..."ptus2 ya mu...??mumu msh blum beli plsa jg ya??yawdh d..takecare..."
ok...fine...gua ud kebal jg lama2 ngeliatin perilaku ntu ce...
tp yg gua ga bs trm ntu sikap na mur...
gua mang salah gua akui...gua ga nanya dulu sebab musabab na...lgsg nembak dy kek gt...
dy tau ntu gr2 ap???ntu gr2 gua merasa dr dulu mpe skrg, dy jarang buat gua pcy klo ad hub na ma ntu ce...dy jarang mao ju2r ma gua klo ce ntu msh nyari2 dy mpe skrg...n lge...klo mang dy ud ga peduli ma ntu ce, ya ud larh, jgn pernah bales lge sms na...ntu nama na dy yg ksh dy harapan...ya ga c??krn ntu larh yg gua lakuin klo mang gua mao ngejauhin seseorang...dgn begitu, dy jg bkl cape ndiri...
padahal, dy prnh blg ma gua klo dy bs aj skt ati, klo msl na gua bales sms co nyang lge dktin gua ntu...
gua nurut bgtt ma dy..gua ga mao dy skt atii, gua ga bales...moe d katain smbg...
jg gua ttp aj ga bales...tp..ap balikan na jg buat gua??
gua skt bgtt emang pas loe prnah blg ma gua klo dy msh sayang ma dy..
gua ngertii...ngelupain seseorang yg prnah dy sayang bgtt mang ga gampang...
tp, tolong...jgn jg dy jabanin ntu ce selagi loe msh berstatus...
skt, sayang...bnr2 skt...mgkn dy mang berharap gua pcy klo dy mang ud cuekin ntu ce...
gua pcy...tp...selalu na fakta yg terjadi...bikin gua goyah...
dy selalu buat gua jd ga pcy n mikir yg macem2...
gua mang org na klo ud kesel n bete bgtt, ga akan prnah bs mikir positif...
ap lge ud ad sangkut paut na ma ntu ce..
gua binun kdg2...gua yg salah, ap mang dy na jg ad hatii??
ju2r..gua mang payahh...gua ga pernah bs ngertiin hati dy...
gua selalu ngulang kesalahan yg sama...n gua jg pernah blg ma dy., klo gua mo brubah...
gua ad usaha...gua ud tahan apapun yg bs gua tahan..
tp, ga tau knp, klo ad sangkut paut na ntu ce, gua bnr2 ga bs sabar n tahan...
maafin gua ya sayang!!!!
ga tau d...hati gua lge kacau bgtt...
bsk dy ud mo balik pula...gua tbh kacau...
gua ga tau kt bae na mst gmn...
gua bnr2 ga pengen ngebebanin dy dgn ad na hub dy ma gua skrg...
mgkn aja dy bkl ktm ce yg co2k ma dy n dy sayang bgtt....
dy pindah...itu nama na suasana ud brubah...lingkungan jg ud brubah..
dy bkl jauh bgtt dr gua...
gua ga tau dy ngapaen...dy jg ga tau gua ngapaen...
mang ga gampang ngejalanin hub kek gini..
ap lge kt tau,kt tuh ga mgkn...
semua org pd suruh gua putus ma dy, tp gua msh ttp pertahanin, krn gua msh ngerasa berat bgtt lepasin dy...gua ga tau knp gua bs sesayang ini ma dy...
pdhl hub gua ma dy bukan yg lancar2...
malah yg bermasalah mulu...
tp...bnr2 ga bs ngelepasin...
mgkn ad saat na gua bs...tp ga tau itu kpn..
gua malah sempet mikir, gua ga pengen cari pengganti na...
sampe gua bnr2 ktm org itu...
gua ga mao ngejalanin hub gua dgn maen2...krn gua tau, itu hanya menyakiti n dalem lubuk hati, ga akan ad kebahagiaan...tp hanya ad kepuasan...
gua ga tau..ap gua bs ktm ma org yg bkl gua sayang, sesayang dy...
gua bnr2 ga pernah nyesalin sdktpun ap yg pernah gua lakuin ma dy...
gua sempet pts ma dy, n balikan lge...gua tau ntu rada ga non sense...
tp gua bnr2 ga nyesel...malah gua ngerasa bahagia...gua bs buat dy hepi lge....
gua bnr2 berharap wkt bs brhenti buat gua...jgn jln mpe bsk...gua ga mao pisah..
gua benci perpisahan...ap lge gua ga tau kpn lge gua bs ktm ma dy...
walaupun dy d jkt..tp...klo mang ga jodoh...ya ud larh...
gua binun bgtt...
sayang...maafin semua kesalahan gua...
gua tau gua mang bad tempered bgtt...
gua msh bljr buat get rid of my bad tempered...
I noe that Ive done so much wrong to you...
but,please..u hv to noe, dat deep in my heart...I never meant it to happen...
I dont...n I never do...
N I also want to apologize for myself to my attitude which was in KLCC...
I didnt meant to leave u alone over there..
I noe u were mad at dat time...
but...I couldnt say anything...
gua ga mao ksh penjelasan ap2, krn gua tau, semua penjelasan yg gua ksh pst ga akan berguna buat loe..coz, loe lge marah bgtt...
gua bkn na bermaksud...
gua cmn merasa bersalah ma eric...
dulu sebelum gua jadian ma loe...
gua ma dy dktt bgttt....tp sejak gua jadian ma loe...
wkt gua semua buat loe n nothing left for him...
so..gua bnr2 ngerasa bersalah bgtt...
jd...setiap kale gua ma dy...
gua pst bkl pretend like I never remember u...
gua ga mao kesan na...ga bs lepas dr pacar ma dy...
kan keliatan na gmn bgtt...
jd..gua bnr2 mohon loe mgkn bkl ngertii suatu hari nanti tanpa explanation dr gua..
coz...gua bnr2 ga pengen nyakitin loe..
gua jg diem aj ma loe wkt ntu..
coz, gua takut ma loe..
loe mang ud tau kan??klo gua selalu tkt, klo loe lge marah...
so,gua milih diem..
bkn krn gua ga peduli ma loe..
gua ud cb2 berkali2 utk ngmg ma loe..
tp gua ga beranii...
muka loe galak...
maaf ya sayang...gua mang gini org na...
plg takut klo ad org marah ma gua..
n gua jg susah buat ngmg ju2r ma org ap lge ma sayang...
jd,mgkn klo mang bs...loe mgkn bkl ngertiin gua tanpa gua bs ngmg k loe seju2ju2rna...
krn gua bnr2 payah buat ini...
maaf...
gua jg bnr2 ga tau gmn nih jadi na...
gua cmn lge mempersiapkan diri klo2 st ari d jkt, mur ktm ma dy yg baru...
gua bnr2 akan mundur...asalkan mur bahagia...
jgn pernah nyari ce yg salah ya, mur...
pelajaran yg ud loe dpt ud lumayan bnyk kq...
jd gua harap, loe bs milih yg bnr...
gua tau...klo kt pts kale ini, ga akan ad kesekian kali na buat kt balikan lge...
jd, gua harap...mur bs milih ce yg bnr2 nyantol d hati na n tulus sayang ma dy...
just cherish wad u have now...
I lophe u more than I used to...and I really do...
Sayang...
ingettt...jgn pernah ngelakuin ap pun yg bs buat diri loe menyesal...
krn itu bkl ga enak bgtt d hati loe...
aku sayang bgtt sama kamu..
mgkn kamu ga akan pernah tau...
but, deep in my heart..I always do....

GoD!!Its just a long journey...ToDaE...TiReD...

Wah!!!Wah!!!
damn fucking tired...
Donno wad have I done for today...
But,really fucking tired...
Hmm...Of course its so...
coz,today,me and cella...na dalam....have been in a long journey in almost the whole dae...
Hmm...I have morning class of course..oh,wad da timing...haha..
Economy class...boring class actually, but me and alda could make it more interesting by having our own agenda while he's teaching in front..LoL...
coz so,2 hours feel like 10 minutes...haha...
Next...after class ended...me and alda rushed to print out da ASSignment and pass it up to Ms.Cath...Its da proposal which has to be done by Friday,23rd of August...
After,we have done with that thingy...
we directly went to have our lunch n breakfast in one time..LoL...
coz we dont have time to have our breakfast b4 da class..
We ate at da restaurant which nearby da KTM...
such a slow service they did...
fucking slow!!!!
but,it tastes good...luckily it tastes good...if not,we really wont be coming...
Hmm...called all my fellow friends to come over n having lunch together...
haha...
done with eating event...
da three of us...Me,cellana dalam n her sista...
just went directly to KL,fetch her sista back to da jail...haha...
Then...done with that...
left only both of us...we went to LoW YaT to seek for something that we really need...
u noe...labtob stuff...but unfortunately,we just couldnt find them, even one...
huff..such a wasting time...
without knowing da weather, it rain suddenly..wdf...
haha...we are forced to walk still without any shelter, coz I tot I have umbrella, but for da fact, I dont...forget left it where...
huff...Hmm...we went to times square and searching 4 a free seat to sit...its tired...
after, we have seated for a while, only for a while, suddenly, wishia called up and asked us to go to pavilion to find she and her BF over there...coz, da dae b4, we actually have promised to meet...hehe...
both of us walked from times square to pavilion...nice...
raining some more...LoL...
after reached there...we had a walk for a while b4 we decided to have a movie to watch and having our fucking dinner...too much made me full...haha...
U noe wad??Ive done for today after watched dat ghost movie...
Thailand ghost movie...God!!!damn scary....
donno dat actually they chose dat movie...
I tot its not wad a horror movie...
For da God Sake, from 4/4, I only watched 1/4 and da rest I closed my eyes and tot for da other stuff...I just couldnt fine watching such movies....
haha...
while at da pavilion,we took some pictures...
coz da view is really nice and good to take some..
KL is nice at nite...really..haha...
ok...stop here guys..
still expecting da good stuff will happen on me someday...
of course between me n HIM...
not another HIM...

Marriage Life Before and After !!

Before marriage.
Darling here.. darling there...
After marriage.
Baling here... baling there...

Before marriage.
I die for you. . .
After marriage.
'You die, up to you. '
Lagi lama married.
You die I help you!

Before marriage.
You go anywhere. . I follow you.
After marriage. .
You go anywhere. . up to you .
Lagi lama married.
You go anywhere better get lost!!

Before wedding
you are my heart, you are my love'
After wedding
'you get on my nerves. '

Before wedding
'you are sweet and kind just like Cinderella'
After wedding
'you are worse than godzilla'

Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue. Like it or not, I'm stuck with you
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue. You get on my head, I will sue you

Before wedding
Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La
After wedding
You want to go, he says you wait-la

Before wedding
She looks like Anita Sarawak
After wedding
Don't know whether katak or biawak

Im expecting that one day Im gonna find out this guy...

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after






her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the






party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but


due


to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was


too



nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please,


let





me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. 'would you please give me






some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.'





Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he





put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously; why



you




have this hobby? He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I was living near






the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea,
just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty





coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my






hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'. While






saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched..









That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can



tell




out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home,






has responsibility of home. Then she also started to speak, spoke about






her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice





talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.








They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets



all





her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was





such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty



coffee!






Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess





married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And,



every




time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee e, as she




knew that's the way he liked it.




After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: 'My



dearest,





please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I



said




to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so





nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It



was





hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be





the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times






in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to



lie







to you for anything..










Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like







the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty







coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for







anything I do for you.. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my







whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you



and







have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee







again'.











Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's







the taste of salty coffee?














It's sweet. She replied.












Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear







but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!





Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one







you like will leave you for the one they love.


Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.


Who calls you back when you hang up on him.


Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.


Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.



Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.



Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he


cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.


Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's


her.'

I hate You bUt I lophe u...

I hate You, but I lophe you...
I can never let you go...
No matter wad u put me through...
You always feel like home...

For every smile you create...
You make a thousand more tears...
For every dread you take away...
You create a thousand more tears...

And the very one that holds me together...
shatters me into pieces...
You're the only one I want to be with forever...
But, your love for me only decreases...

You tell me now after all this time...
That you don't love me completely...
And now, Im supposed to be alright...
Knowing all u've done is deceive me...

Now, every time I hear those words...
"I love you"I'll feel only pain...
The reality that I once knew, blurs...
And I find it's not the same...

When I noe those words are just a lie...
And I'm left with only my love...
For someone who's love for me has died...
Because I'm never good enough...

It hurts to go on without you...
Not knowing wad is or ever was real...
I just don't noe wad to do...
Emptiness and confusion is all I feel...

All I can do is only live in denial...
And pretend that you actually love me...
And hope that after a while...
You'll come to your senses and see...
That you're in love with me...
And you can never stay away...
Like everyone else can see...
I hope you see the truth one day...

I hate you, but I lophe you...
I can never let you go...
And no matter wad u put me through...
You always feel like home to me...
I really care of u...
have u ever realize dat???

Thinking Of You every single time...

I woke up this morning thinking of you
And i wondered if you were thinking of me to...

I sat up and thought about our last goodbye
and all i could do was sit there and cry

It's hard to let you go when i know what we could be
I just have to wait until the day that you will finally see

Maybe someday you'll realize how much i care for you
and maybe you'll realize that you care for me to

But until we meet what could be fate,
i'll just sit here thinking of you and wait

16/08/08

Indonesia!!!!!!MERDEKAA!!!!!!!!!!!!huaaa........
Anyway...kemaren pesta malam Indonesia na seruu abiss.....
gua sangat menikmatii...LOL....
assoyyyyy.......
bangetttt.......
sebener na gua pengen nyampein ini kemaren...tp gua ud keburu cape bgtt mpe ga ad mud nulis and lge net gua ud kek TAI....!!!!!!keselll.....hehe....
skrg...sebelum gua ngelanjutin buat ASSignment gua nyang kek tai,mending gua buat pemanasan dulu dgn nge-blogg....hehe....
iy,crt na ntu gini...
kemarenan ntu kite ntu mst na ud nyampe d sana jam 10 pagi...tp gr2 mslh taxi nyang rese,jd gua n alda terpaksa jln dr sini sktr jam 11 an dueh...
ntu msh gpp...trusan nyang bkin gua serem na ap tau ga??
sekale nyampe nyang gua liat semua na alai2 ga jelas...spt kata alda...
gua manx biasa za ma nyang kek gituan,tp gua cmn ga suka cara dy org ngeliatin kt2 n pake d goda2in sgala lge...gile,cuy....serem abies....
haha...
tp ya ud larh...
hmm...
trus pas kt ud masuk ke dalam field na...anjrott....panas bgttt...ya iy larh..jam brp gt lhoo....hehe...
hmm...n ngeselin na...ud pns2 gitu,acara na mulai na msh jam 3 an gt...
jd d dpn2 ntu msh acara na alai2 gt dueh...
lomba nyanyi larh...trus penyanyi melayu nah larh...
haha...tau argh...ga napsuu....hehe
hmm..trus...akhir na nyampe jg jam 3...
band ptm nyang keluar...ap cb??kt nebak2...tp slh semua...
ternyata dewi2...haha...
cakep2 manx ntu 2 cewe...haha...suara na serek2 gmn gt..haha....
gile..ntn na jg ud kepnsan gilaa gua....
buset da ntu matahari kek ad 10 za...
panas gilaa...huff...
tp najonk na,pas ud dewi2 kan samsons...eh dy ujan da ntu langitt...
manx dasar...tp bgs dueh...d ga gt panas lge...
gila..membunuh bgtt ntu panas...haha....
bis samsons lgsg dueh sheila on 7 keluar...
ya duta na lucu...bnyk bgtt gaya na...hehe....
eh..parah na masa ntu pntn2 bikin malu bgtt....
pas sheila on 7 lge performing,tb2 pd ributt....
kata na rebutan t4 buat ngeliat dy org performing lbh dktt....huff...ya ud larh ya...
najonk bgtt..ud kek anak kecill za...
bis c sheila sumpritt gua c ud cape bgtt....cape berdiri n cape ntn....
tp gua ga bs balik dulu...gr2 gua dsini cmn buat ngeliat ungu...masa gt za gua balikk....
akhir na gua bilangg....
ungu keluar jg....trus gua lgsg ngibrit ke dalem ma yo2 n alda...
buset cuy...gua liat pasha dkt bgttt....ud kek mimpi gua...
msh ga bs pcy...dy performing dkt bgtt jarak na ma gua....buset da....
n yg plg asoyy na...dy sempet ta2pan mata ma gua brp kale donk...gila ga c loe ngebayangin jg...
liat2an lhoo...bkn na cmn glance doank...
gua mpe salting...haha...najonk ya..tp ya gmn lge...manx kenyataan c...haha....
anjrott....
sayang ud nikah,,,haha....
pokoke gua bs liat dy kemaren ntu berkat alda n yo2...makac yee b2...haha...
sumpeh gua seneng bgttt...haha....
ud kek mimpi za...bnran...huff...
balik2 rumah jam stgh 11 an...trus lgsg cbt mam ma anki d mamak bwh...
lpr bgt boo...ga mkn dr pagii..hehe...nyemil doank kerja na..hehe...
anyway...mur sayang...gua msh berharap yg terbae buat kt b2...
coz I really care of u so much...damn much...
gua ga peduli loe prnah nyakitin gua brp bnyk...krn rasa sayang gua bnr2 ga bs bruba ke loe...
lophe u so...damn muchh....
come back here soon...pleasee....

OoOpzzz....Couldnt believe it still....

EiTzzz.....
AsOyyyy.....
wahhh....
hmm....its such a nice show...
u noe wad,guys??
Finally,I have da chance to officially see my idol just in front my eyes...
oh...damn...haha....
ya...actually,hari ini gua ma alda n yo2 ke kenperensi pers na dy org...
ptm na ya jelas alda doank larh yg prg cuy...
tp gr2 gua dgr ada ungu d sono,makana gua bersikeras pengen ikutt....
ya gua kan pengen ktm donk...haha...
n gua bnr2 ktm donk...ya walaupun biasa za,tp dat feeling really fun...
I enjoy da feeling...haha...
ktm bnyk band2 Indo donk yg terkenal...
hmm...ad ungu,sheila on 7,peterpan,slank,dewi2...itu doank c yg dtg...
td na ad samsons jg...
tp ga tau gr2 ap jd ga bs dtg rie ini dueh...
huff...
padahal kan lumayan ntu klo bs ktm ma doi jg...haha...
hmm...tp lumayan...berkat alda n yo2 gua bs ngeliat idola ku...hehe....
I noe its a bit stupid...but,still,I like this feeling...LoL...
trus gr2 dy org jg gua dpt tiket gratis ntn na mereka boo.....
pesta malam Indonesia....wahh....gila bgtt d...sabtu ini cuy...
tp pg2...tau dueh gmn...
tp yg pst gua mo prg n liat...wah..kek na bkl seru ntu ngeliat dy org manggung pake mata asliii...
haha...Im waiting for da day....hehe....
N lge...gua rie ini br ngmg ma mur...
klo ternyata ad Inti college yg msh bs ngasih harapan org yg demen maen kek doi...
sumpah gua berhrp bgtt dy mo msk sana...
gua bkn na mo dy bs sama2 ma gua trus..ya walaupun manx pst main reason na gt...
tp gua jg pengen loe cpt selese...klo ga,kan kesiann bookkkk.....
kerjaan na maen2 mulu...ya ga c??
huff...
gua bkn na doain dy ga lu2s..tp gua bnr2 brhrp dy bs lanjutin dsini...
pleasee....for da GOD sake....amen...hehe....
ya...walaupun rie ini ad org yg blg ma gua...
klo gua bnran sayang ma dy,gua hrs ngedukung semua keputusan dy...
ya gua ngedukung,tp gua jg berhrp yg terbae kan???
gua ga mao liat dy jd rusakkk....
gmn donk...??
gua mao dy bs sama kek org laen...cpt lu2s...
n lu2s bkn krn duid,tp krn usaha dy murniii....pleasee....God...U have to help me out this time....
I noe u'll help me...amen..

Its been a while...

Yeah!!!
exactly...its really been a while since I came back from Indonesia last Monday which on da 28th of July but arrived here on da 29th of July coz my flight was nite flight, so I reached here in da morning...OoO....
damn...u noe wad???
since I came back here, I almost lost contact with him...
Its not bcoz I dont want to contact him,its just bcoz...I donno...really donno how to describe such feeling....damn hurt...
I donno whether he really ever be in a serious relationship like this...
but,yet, I also donno whether he takes this seriously or not...
I never noe....
I did asked him...but he always answers me in da same sentence which says that he really cares of me and loves me that much...
I barely couldnt believe each of his words anymore...
At da very first time I accepted this relationship, I really tried to trust him...and I made it...
I really trusted him without any doubt...but??
wad did I get??nothing still...
he still be mean to me...yes,I noe he's not totally be mean,maybe I havent understand enough his personality so I never noe his purpose by doing all of this...
I donno...I really donno...but da most important thing dat u hv to noe...
I really care of him and I never expect anything difficult from him...its true...
Da only thing I want is, he noes how to appreciate someone that loves him dat much...
I want him to cherish me as wad I am suppose to get...Its normal if a girlfriend expect such thing to his boyfriend,,rite???she just wants to be treated like wad has he promised her in da past time...nothing more...really...
and u noe wad???I really really miss him dat much rite now...
I noe its just a couple of weeks ago since I met him...but,I really want to see him rite now...
I want to hug him as wad I always do to him...
please..I beg u,faster come back...
I really need you to be here rite now...
I miss you...
I noe ure having fun over there..but,please its ur time to come back here...
I donno wad uve been thinking...
u said u miss me..but wads da fact??
U always take ur mother as an excuse for not allowing you to come back..
but,I noe deep inside ur heart, u dont expect to come back,rite??
huff...
I still couldnt fully believe in u,Im sorry...
u hv hurt me too deep and u yet havent prove ur words to me..
Im still waiting here...
I cant simply love someone else...
dats my big problem rite now..
still need u dat much...huff....