Hmm...
todae??
Im really sad...damn sad...
ini semua ad hubungan na ma doii...
ptm na msh bae2 aj...trus pas ud d kul gua semua na baru mulai...
ujan...damn....yg nama na ujan mang ga pernah bikin ati jd tenang...
selalu bkl sendu nanti na...huff...
n da main prob of our rlationship is...that BITCH....!!!!!
fucked her ass off...
tb2 telp mur...gua tau...jgn pikir gua ga tau dueh..pokoke gua tau...
buat gua marah bgtt n jd berantem ma mur...
dasar BITCH!!!!!
you are really a BITCH...
stop ruining every single thing that related to his life...
bis telp nan ma ntu CE...tb2 gua received message dr ntu CE...
nulis ap cb??nulis..."ptus2 ya mu...??mumu msh blum beli plsa jg ya??yawdh d..takecare..."
ok...fine...gua ud kebal jg lama2 ngeliatin perilaku ntu ce...
tp yg gua ga bs trm ntu sikap na mur...
gua mang salah gua akui...gua ga nanya dulu sebab musabab na...lgsg nembak dy kek gt...
dy tau ntu gr2 ap???ntu gr2 gua merasa dr dulu mpe skrg, dy jarang buat gua pcy klo ad hub na ma ntu ce...dy jarang mao ju2r ma gua klo ce ntu msh nyari2 dy mpe skrg...n lge...klo mang dy ud ga peduli ma ntu ce, ya ud larh, jgn pernah bales lge sms na...ntu nama na dy yg ksh dy harapan...ya ga c??krn ntu larh yg gua lakuin klo mang gua mao ngejauhin seseorang...dgn begitu, dy jg bkl cape ndiri...
padahal, dy prnh blg ma gua klo dy bs aj skt ati, klo msl na gua bales sms co nyang lge dktin gua ntu...
gua nurut bgtt ma dy..gua ga mao dy skt atii, gua ga bales...moe d katain smbg...
jg gua ttp aj ga bales...tp..ap balikan na jg buat gua??
gua skt bgtt emang pas loe prnah blg ma gua klo dy msh sayang ma dy..
gua ngertii...ngelupain seseorang yg prnah dy sayang bgtt mang ga gampang...
tp, tolong...jgn jg dy jabanin ntu ce selagi loe msh berstatus...
skt, sayang...bnr2 skt...mgkn dy mang berharap gua pcy klo dy mang ud cuekin ntu ce...
gua pcy...tp...selalu na fakta yg terjadi...bikin gua goyah...
dy selalu buat gua jd ga pcy n mikir yg macem2...
gua mang org na klo ud kesel n bete bgtt, ga akan prnah bs mikir positif...
ap lge ud ad sangkut paut na ma ntu ce..
gua binun kdg2...gua yg salah, ap mang dy na jg ad hatii??
ju2r..gua mang payahh...gua ga pernah bs ngertiin hati dy...
gua selalu ngulang kesalahan yg sama...n gua jg pernah blg ma dy., klo gua mo brubah...
gua ad usaha...gua ud tahan apapun yg bs gua tahan..
tp, ga tau knp, klo ad sangkut paut na ntu ce, gua bnr2 ga bs sabar n tahan...
maafin gua ya sayang!!!!
ga tau d...hati gua lge kacau bgtt...
bsk dy ud mo balik pula...gua tbh kacau...
gua ga tau kt bae na mst gmn...
gua bnr2 ga pengen ngebebanin dy dgn ad na hub dy ma gua skrg...
mgkn aja dy bkl ktm ce yg co2k ma dy n dy sayang bgtt....
dy pindah...itu nama na suasana ud brubah...lingkungan jg ud brubah..
dy bkl jauh bgtt dr gua...
gua ga tau dy ngapaen...dy jg ga tau gua ngapaen...
mang ga gampang ngejalanin hub kek gini..
ap lge kt tau,kt tuh ga mgkn...
semua org pd suruh gua putus ma dy, tp gua msh ttp pertahanin, krn gua msh ngerasa berat bgtt lepasin dy...gua ga tau knp gua bs sesayang ini ma dy...
pdhl hub gua ma dy bukan yg lancar2...
malah yg bermasalah mulu...
tp...bnr2 ga bs ngelepasin...
mgkn ad saat na gua bs...tp ga tau itu kpn..
gua malah sempet mikir, gua ga pengen cari pengganti na...
sampe gua bnr2 ktm org itu...
gua ga mao ngejalanin hub gua dgn maen2...krn gua tau, itu hanya menyakiti n dalem lubuk hati, ga akan ad kebahagiaan...tp hanya ad kepuasan...
gua ga tau..ap gua bs ktm ma org yg bkl gua sayang, sesayang dy...
gua bnr2 ga pernah nyesalin sdktpun ap yg pernah gua lakuin ma dy...
gua sempet pts ma dy, n balikan lge...gua tau ntu rada ga non sense...
tp gua bnr2 ga nyesel...malah gua ngerasa bahagia...gua bs buat dy hepi lge....
gua bnr2 berharap wkt bs brhenti buat gua...jgn jln mpe bsk...gua ga mao pisah..
gua benci perpisahan...ap lge gua ga tau kpn lge gua bs ktm ma dy...
walaupun dy d jkt..tp...klo mang ga jodoh...ya ud larh...
gua binun bgtt...
sayang...maafin semua kesalahan gua...
gua tau gua mang bad tempered bgtt...
gua msh bljr buat get rid of my bad tempered...
I noe that Ive done so much wrong to you...
but,please..u hv to noe, dat deep in my heart...I never meant it to happen...
I dont...n I never do...
N I also want to apologize for myself to my attitude which was in KLCC...
I didnt meant to leave u alone over there..
I noe u were mad at dat time...
but...I couldnt say anything...
gua ga mao ksh penjelasan ap2, krn gua tau, semua penjelasan yg gua ksh pst ga akan berguna buat loe..coz, loe lge marah bgtt...
gua bkn na bermaksud...
gua cmn merasa bersalah ma eric...
dulu sebelum gua jadian ma loe...
gua ma dy dktt bgttt....tp sejak gua jadian ma loe...
wkt gua semua buat loe n nothing left for him...
so..gua bnr2 ngerasa bersalah bgtt...
jd...setiap kale gua ma dy...
gua pst bkl pretend like I never remember u...
gua ga mao kesan na...ga bs lepas dr pacar ma dy...
kan keliatan na gmn bgtt...
jd..gua bnr2 mohon loe mgkn bkl ngertii suatu hari nanti tanpa explanation dr gua..
coz...gua bnr2 ga pengen nyakitin loe..
gua jg diem aj ma loe wkt ntu..
coz, gua takut ma loe..
loe mang ud tau kan??klo gua selalu tkt, klo loe lge marah...
so,gua milih diem..
bkn krn gua ga peduli ma loe..
gua ud cb2 berkali2 utk ngmg ma loe..
tp gua ga beranii...
muka loe galak...
maaf ya sayang...gua mang gini org na...
plg takut klo ad org marah ma gua..
n gua jg susah buat ngmg ju2r ma org ap lge ma sayang...
jd,mgkn klo mang bs...loe mgkn bkl ngertiin gua tanpa gua bs ngmg k loe seju2ju2rna...
krn gua bnr2 payah buat ini...
maaf...
gua jg bnr2 ga tau gmn nih jadi na...
gua cmn lge mempersiapkan diri klo2 st ari d jkt, mur ktm ma dy yg baru...
gua bnr2 akan mundur...asalkan mur bahagia...
jgn pernah nyari ce yg salah ya, mur...
pelajaran yg ud loe dpt ud lumayan bnyk kq...
jd gua harap, loe bs milih yg bnr...
gua tau...klo kt pts kale ini, ga akan ad kesekian kali na buat kt balikan lge...
jd, gua harap...mur bs milih ce yg bnr2 nyantol d hati na n tulus sayang ma dy...
just cherish wad u have now...
I lophe u more than I used to...and I really do...
Sayang...
ingettt...jgn pernah ngelakuin ap pun yg bs buat diri loe menyesal...
krn itu bkl ga enak bgtt d hati loe...
aku sayang bgtt sama kamu..
mgkn kamu ga akan pernah tau...
but, deep in my heart..I always do....
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